Bat Kol - The Meaning

It’s 3 am and I haven’t slept for weeks. I want to sleep, but when I close my eyes I feel like I am drowning.

My 20 year marriage has ended, my music career is a huge failure and has been on the shelf for decades, My kids are hurting, and I am more confused about myself than ever.

Have you ever truly been at the end of yourself? Have you ever been so tired that you are between sleep and dreaming, mumbling about things that don’t add up to anything? So stressed out about things / people you cannot control, and angry that you cannot control them? It’s a terrible place to be, but that is when The “Bat Kol,” or “The Voice Of God” was finally able to penetrate my armor and administer my critical care.

The song “Bat Kol” isn’t an evangelical outreach. It’s not about the “sunshine gospel.” It is a tone poem about the voice of God talking to me as I was drowning. The angelic background vocals aren’t angels rejoicing, rather they are a desperate, heavenly plea for me to finally understand who I am because time is running out!

I woke up tired and my pillow drenched in tears, but I had a new understanding. The understanding was that if it’s not right now, it will be, walk on.

I put my feet on the cold ground and started walking. The ghost in the machine became one spirit in me and I was filled with gratitude for the first time in years. I still struggle daily, but with a new understanding.

I write this to you as a fellow wounded voyager. If all I am able to do is remind you that you are never lost, but you are found, then you have just heard the “Bat Kol!”

Love you,

Jon